Let me first preface this by saying i haven’t read it.  I just typed what i felt and this is the result.  It made sense to me so hopefully it will to you.

This always seems to happen, I climb into my bunk planning on sleeping but instead I cannot for the life of me convince myself that I am tired.  This could be that its only 215am and my body is used to going to sleep around 4am.  So as I lay here I am currently listening to the new John Mayer record.   If i do say so myself, this record is awesome.  But we’re getting off track, back to me not being able to sleep.

I think the reason for this mostly is because when I am alone in my bunk its me time, time to relax from the day, time to breathe.  It is at this time that I wish I wasn’t two hours behind some of my closest friends and could talk to them on the phone.  Sometimes all you really want is someone to throw your thoughts at.  The friend that wont judge what you say and that gives you the awkward pause to let you think about what you just said and not giving their opinion.  Its hard because i’ll be the first to admit that I let relationships slip while I’m away on the road.  Tour engulfs you, to the point that you sometimes forget to breathe.  I forget to return txt messages, don’t call as much as i should, i know i suck.  Relationships are two way streets though, I’m sure you know that. (I consider the people who read this blog to be the smartest and brightest on the internet)  It’s like I know you’re busy, and I know i’m busy, but we both need to try.  If you want to make it work, i hope you want to make it work.

Life, much like this tour, is going buy so fast, and i got to thinking.  What happened, and how did this go by so fast?  I don’t even know what day it is.  Just what city I am in and what time we go on.  When I stop to think about it, i’ve been around the world in a year, seen  america multiple times, experienced things that i once thought about only as dreams.  Anything other then yes is no, anything other then stay is go, anything less then i love you is lying.   I’m blessed for what i do and the people i get to experience and have in my life.  I hope you all have some of those people, the ones who love you even with your flaws.